Coming back from my emotional abuse

[pilot]

I want to go check her texts right now. Near obsessive levels. Posting here instead. Lawd hold me back!!!!!

What good would that do? What if you read some very detailed text of a sexual nature? Would that change anything? What if you saw nothing? What if you saw nothing because she had just deleted everything?

Bottom line is at the point you are in right now it is enough for you to know if an A is a deal breaker or not. If not, then do not worry about details because they will just hurt you. Trust me, from experience...a year can go by and you can still learn new things detail related. Time has a way of exposing all sorts of secrets.