if it's too late why is he still here?

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Gorgeous! But I failed to apply enough sunblock to the back of my thighs and they are quite red! To make it better I took the jeep so it was a nice breezy ride.

This has been going on so long I'm not sure why I can't be more detached. It's frustrating. I really am trying not to let his phone activity bother me, but when he's texting his buddies it's almost like he purposely lets me see it, other times he tries to hide the fact that he is even texting. THAT is my biggest problem right now....well and the fact that I don't think he's attracted to me at all physically. Although my sister thinks the reason that he avoids any touching or even looking at me is because he's afraid something might spark...who knows.

I am going to try to focus on eating healthy and exercising for the next couple of months. Tired of feeling this way about myself and really want to buy some new clothes and fit into the ones I have! Going to the grocery store now to stock up on healthy stuff!

thanks for checking in as always!