Yes it's definitely the symptoms. I need to find a way to relieve that stress, obsessing, and control issues.

Like right now she's out hiking with the EA OM and another friend. I have no idea how to process this. It seems like it's only going to lead to where we were before, her in love with him and as good as out the door. I know all I can do is let her do her thing and make her choices. I can't stop thinking about it, find friends ing her on iPhone, etc. Can't. Stop. I get all effed up, twisted in knots.

So then I feel like I just need to remove myself from this. So yes the symptoms.

Help me!! I need that magic bullet technique where I can just wipe my mind. Arrrrrrrrrrgh!

Me 37,W37
D8,D5
T20 years, M13 years
BD-5/14
MC starts (continues)-9/14
EA discovered-10/14
Piecing(?)-11/14-5/14
"I just feel 'done'"-5/15
Trial S (I moved)-6/15/15