I'm going to do as you say and tonight when I get back home, I'm going to write down some of the things I'm most afraid of and what I can say in reply, and I might even post here.
Yesterday was such a hard day for me. A few "friends" called, (yes, I put them in-between quotation marks because yesterday they didn't seem very friendly) and even though I tried to put up a happy-go-lucky tone of voice, both said "What's wrong, I can totally hear that something is wrong." And then I told them a very light version and the replies where soft as a 2x4 in my head, multiple times!
"Totally sounds like he wants out, call it quits, once it's headed that way it's impossible to get it to change, it totally sounds like he doesn't love you any more, if he had loved you he would have called, you must make demands and if he doesn't deliver get rid of him.." Well, Zeus.. Yet get the gist of it..
It felt so horrible, and it was so hard to try and stay calm and not just break down in tears. I know they want (or think they want) what's best for me, but that hurt like hell.
Today is a better day. I'm busy like a bee all day and hopefully that will keep me from thinking to much. I need to work on GAL! I've decided to try and keep a positive mind until I know the facts and focus on getting ready.
Zeus, I can't tell you how much your replies mean to me.. Almost feels a bit silly, because I don't even know you but still it makes me feel so much better about everything. THANK YOU!!
All my best!! Big hug!
M: 44 H: 43 ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect. "This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15 Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15 It's over: 9/5
