I actually have no money invested in the trip. She paid for everything. That was her anniversary and her birthday gifts to me.

As much as the "I want to go" part of me is struggling, I'll let her know I do not want to go on vacation with her.

Thank you for all your advice. And thank you to everyone that's posted in here. It's been a huge help!

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Married: 1 year
Together: 4 years
No kids
3 Dogs