Hi Toots and JellyB. , thank you both for your comments. Toots you are so right , I do feel very sorry for myself at the moment. I'm not sure why, only a couple of weeks ago W was coming forward and mentioned coming home I have stood back and think its comes down to the trust thing. W was a very supportive and caring W She had plenty of faults but who doesn't. The one thing I thought was I could trust her I've said before how my dad left when I was 11 and whether this caused my trust issues or not I have always had them. My self pity comes from this I think. How could I trust anyone again If the one person I would have trusted my life with is capable of letting me down then anyone is
JellyB. thanks very much for posting. I will catch up on your sitch shortly. As I have said before , all the ladies in this site would be a great catch because you all are sticking by your H through incredibly hard times I follow Toots , Pink , Rppfl, Vanillia and Ahoys posts very closely and they all are fantastic ladies that deserve so much more from their Hs. As I said to toots , it's the trust issue I would have going forward and I can work to overcome that or accept what is. I can only control myself and having expectations of others is not somewhere I want to be
