Well, that was fun. So I texted him to let him know that we didn't need to have the meeting if he didn't have his proposal and he said he would bring it with him. When he got here he pulled out a blank piece of paper and started writing on it. I asked if he had his proposal and he said it was in his head. I told him that I didn't think having this discussion was going to be productive without everything on paper. He asked me to hear him out and so I just listened. He went through what he felt he was entitled to (which with the exception of the equity in the house was actually less than I thought he would ask for).
Before we started he said he never wanted to be here. I just kept my mouth shut as I wanted to say that it was his choice that we were here. He didn't spew, seemed very sure of himself, sure of his choice and seemed to have no interest in ever R. He said he just wanted to get everything filed and done as soon as possible so we could move on.
I guess it went as well as could be expected. There were so many times I wanted to make a comment about OW, but I kept my mouth shut. I stayed calm and waited to cry until he left.
***Pity party alert***
This just hurts so bad. It just felt so weird to be sitting at the dining room table talking about splitting our stuff and filing D paperwork, while he just acted like it was no big deal. Like "let me just sign some stuff and sweep my magic wand over everything and tadaa, I am free and can do whatever or whoever I want". Like the last 4.5 years never happened, like our M is just something that can be undone so easily. He can't wait to be done and I feel like my heart is being ripped out of my body.
Me:36 H: 29 T: 4 years M: 2 years No kids In-house sep 10/4/14 H moved out 1/2/15 Talk of D 4/9/15
"She's standing on a line between giving up and seeing how much more she can take" John Mayer
