Hi all. Thanks for posting. Work taken a real hit but it is what it is. Life goes on and it means I'll have to recruit a new manager and that's not something I enjoy.

Kids doing well 'S16 won an award and we are off to a big presentation next week
He' has an allocation for two of us and D10 and I are going S16 is really pleased and it's nice to see. D10 a little down but ok. D14 has been invited to a concert soon so she's really happy and S20 is over the moon because I ve offered him a summer job so he can afford to upgrade his motorbike.

Nothing to report on W. Stayed out of her way pretty much and just had a couple of calls and texts over the last few days. She did call today and I had one of my old drivers in for a days driving as I had a driver leave on Friday. The relief driver also plastered my extenstion a few years ago and knows W. When I explained to W that I told him she had left , W was very unhappy and said she didn't just leave , that we wernt getting on and we seperated , I just said ok and changed the subject. She did start to tell me how her kitchen was flooded last night so I just nicely said call the landlord and finished the call.

Thank you all for the support and I think Mahhhty is right , I've given up. My attitude on helping W through her fog hasn't changed , I just want to be over all the anguish and pain. Re a new R at some stage I don't believe I could ever trust anyone again so why risk going through this pain again.

Iim sure their are decent people out there as shown by this board but finding them would not be easy. I re read my last post and it had the ring of poor RD to it. I don't feel that way just realistic , W was / is a really good person and she lost her feelings for me That's really hard to accept but I must The last 7 months have let me see my mistakes in my M and I'm on the road to becoming a much better person. My kids have a much better Dad and I have vastly improved Rs with my Ds.

You are all really kind to continue posting. I have a bit of housework to do and then prepare school lunches and I will return to the board and catch up on everyones sitch.

Take care all. Rd