Found out today I gave an std. I was shocked. Went through the time line with the doc. Have been intimate with no one but h since 2000 and noone at all in almost year and half. Was given a full std screening in 2004 when pregnant with s and was negative. Doc said if I had been infected then blood work would have been positive even if no symptoms. So I was infected somewhere between 2004 and 10/2013.
I am livid. Did h begin PA with OW earlier than I thought or were there more OW earlier? This is just another betrayal and now I need to pay for his callous abuse of our marriage. I know o didn't do anything wrong but I feel so dirty. I don't think I will even be able to look at him when he comes for s tomorrow.
I also found out I am diabetic. Can't blame this one on h Both my parents were/are diabetic. Planning to do something good with this diagnosis and take back control of my health. No more emotional eating and self medicating with chocolate. Had a really positive session with a diabetes coach and have follow ups scheduled for Thursday and next week.
Apparently the stress from the uncontrolled diabetes triggered the STD outbreak. Otherwise I still wouldn't know.
Me 44 H 42 M 10 T 12 (at time of BD) Ss 20 16 S11 (special needs)
BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom 10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied S and I move out 3/15
