KGirl - letting the past go

[KGirl]

Well, today's the day... final hearing is in a few hours. One stop to make at STBX's lawyer's office to sign some paperwork related to the house, then on to the courthouse. Very emotional this morning with the finality of it all, and it was easy to forget about/put aside when I didn't have to actively do anything. Now I have to stand in front of people and agree to my marriage being irretrievably broken (I mean, I could say no, but that will just cause more grief and questions, it's not really worth it - they'll grant it anyways as long as he says yes).

I did ponder what I'd do if suddenly he changed his mind or had second thoughts. I think I'd want to still move forward so we aren't tied to each other financially, and we could consider dating after that point. That way I wouldn't feel obligated to make a go of it with him again if it really wasn't right for me. But, I kinda doubt that will happen anyway.