You are being way to kind.. I have this burning whole in my heart at the moment, and I couldn't control it what so ever, it felt like.
So scared of what he'll say on Saturday. I'm trying to keep a positive mind, you know, laws of attraction and all that. But in the back of my mind is his words "I'm not in love with you any more. I don't want to work on this any more. I can't help what I feel". Hurts like hell!
Can I say something really bad? After the race I'm running first, I'm going to his place for a shower and to see him. I so wish he'll jump in the shower with me.. What does that say about me? That I'm like the scarlet letter, or what you call it..
Just wish to be close to him, even if it's only for awhile.. But I don't think that it's gonna happen and I bet most of you think it's not a good idea if it does. And I'm not thinking, just feeling.
Luckily I have loads of things planned for the upcoming days. All in the spirit of GAL! Tomorrow the hair salon and a run, Thursday I'm going to run and then drive to a larger town to listen to a woman who is very inspirational and she talks about relationships.. Thought I might pick up on something good. Friday I guess will be the hardest day, since I have no plans yet, and then it's Saturday and the wait will be over after I cross the finish line of the race.
OMG, I'm just going on and on.. Sorry!
Thanks again dear Smothy for your answer! I'm going to work on the forcing part.. Hugs!
M: 44 H: 43 ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect. "This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15 Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15 It's over: 9/5
Friday I guess will be the hardest day, since I have no plans yet, and then it's Saturday and the wait will be over after I cross the finish line of the race. 
