And as Mozza said, read others' posts, reply to them, offer your thoughts and you will in return get more traffic on your thread. You are not alone. I know you are desperate, it will pass, it may take a turn for the worse for a bit of time, but it will get better. I can promise you that.
Also it can help if you get to Card's or Mozza's thread and read their stories from the beginning and you will see, they to (as we all were) a pile of hot mess from beginning.
