Part 19 - keeping on keeping on

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Well good morning all

its a very windy one down here today WFH to catch up the day after the bank holiday, in the office tomorrow which will be an opportunity to drop my ring in.

So back to the grind this morning after a busy and eventful weekend, nothing from w but thats to be expected as she'll be fully on H.E. and getting s to art etc, even if not I dont feel that panic if she doesnt call me/text me/fb me anymore.

Did drop her a quick message but was just to say I'll pick s up after work for swimming (yes V I think he may develop gills!)

Ive done the usual exercises etc this morning all my grooming and even got some house stuff done while i was on a conference meeting (ah bluetooth) so now back at my desk on emails.

So mixed today, happy about the way yesterday went it was such a good feeling to be with s and w and w was w yesterday back how I remember from our early days but with s integrated. We have a ways to go obviously but trust takes time.

Obviously a little flat after such a good one and then a work day but again thats not suprising. W is now very very open with me even telling me the flipside and follow on from Wows hubbys conversation, thats exceedingly refreshing after our lack of communication over the years.

We had a moment together while s was busy yesterday at the seaside where we both said things would not be back to the way they were as we've both changed, we both know what we want from a future together, we just need to work on it now. I think that sums up where I *think* we are right now. It does make things a little more complex in threading the needle between working with w to keep the motion going and pressuring and I'll misstep as will she but at least we have an (optimistic) timeframe and a destination in mind and know some of the perils between here and there.

Not home yet but another step on.

And yes V, you're right we're all a work in progress and one thing I take away more than anything tackling depression is it doesnt go away, I can control it, deal with it and be me not what it wants me to be but yes, it will be with me always and I will always be working on controlling it and being the best me I can.

Cheers

Thanks all.