It's Tuesday and it's 10.38 here AM (I think, we don't use that here but it hasn't been midday here yet so morning-ish). Think PM is evening right?
So today I've just been lying in bed and reading the book that finally arrived. Training last night went well, so I was very happy about that. But dead silent from him, and I feel like I can't take it any more. Want to call him to see if we are to get together this week as we spoke about.
His text yesterday, went from being a small step forward, to a giant step back in my head because he says nothing of us, or anything like that.
I'm at a loss, so lost, and getting back on track seems so hard. Feels like I'm just prolonging my agony and panic is riding me pretty hard at the moment. So silly, really. I am a grown woman, making myself so small..
M: 44 H: 43 ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect. "This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15 Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15 It's over: 9/5
