So lunch was fairly uneventful. Not even sure why he even asked me. It was mostly small talk. Towards the end, he brought up splitting the assets again (even though we had already agreed to meet Wednesday night to discuss it). Asked if I had an idea of what I wanted for when we talked on Wednesday and talked about getting an appraisal. All things that we have talked about 100 times.
Very confusing. I let myself dwell on it for a little while, but then I decided that it's not the first time I've been confused by his behavior and it's probably not going to be the last.
Hahaha. Stupid WAS's (not really, but you know). As the vets say, you're confused because he's confused.
Let's not get in the habit of mindreading. I could speculate what dynamics are pushing and pulling him, what needs he may be meeting by seeing you, or anticipating you begging/pleading, etc, etc. Could be temperature checking, could be trying to gather evidence to further vilify you...I just DON'T KNOW.
I know it's hard on you, but I'm so proud you kept it casual and followed his lead. You can't win points in this game, but you can sure lose them, and you did nothing wrong based on what you described.
I wish I could take some of your burden Nole. I'm so sorry you are feeling it so deeply.
But then again, it is a reflection of how much love you have for your H, and who you are as a person. Be proud of your pain, it says noble things about you. Just don't let that become your identity, you're a winner and will allow this to define you in positive ways, not negative ones.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
