Early morning here and just woke up. Clock says 5,30. Anxiety and sadness is very high at the moment.
All I got from him yesterday was that morning text and then silence. And I can feel that I'm giving up hope. I so wish he would text that he thinks of me, or misses me or anything. Just a little sign of that he hasn't totally given up. He was so firm when we spoke last Wednesday. He didn't have any feelings for me any more, he didn't miss me and so on. And now it just feels like I'm silly for thinking a little bit of time apart is gonna change his mind.

Haven't met him for since last Saturday. It wasn't pleasant.
We have decided to meet this week, I hope he still wants to.

I got the book yesterday, but after running practice I was so tired my eyes wouldn't stay open and I just had to sleep.
It's raining outside today and I've got no plans. I will light a fire and put on a cup of tea and read.

Does any of you think that it could be a positive that he texted me, even though it was a very simple friendly text, only a hug at the end? Or could it be that he just feels obligated to get in touch. He did call last week after a few days of less contact and in the end he did say he didn't miss me.

I know, I shouldn't even be thinking of this. I should be concentrating on GAL and work on myself. And I do do that.
I'm just so cared that with this time so disconnected, he's going to think it's just wonderful to be rid of me and tell me we are over. And it hurts. Like hell.

Just going to wake up a bit more and then get stuck in my book. I need it.

All my best to you all out there! Sorry I'm in such a negative spiral at the moment..

M: 44 H: 43
ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect.
"This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15
Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15
It's over: 9/5