Her greatest issue is that she wants to have sex (she says) but not with me. I wonder if at some point I triggered something and it will just always be a blocker for her.
I also wonder if for her, she thinks divorce is easier than dealing with whatever this might be (or if she even realizes it).
I'm surely not going to bring it up.
But, since she's done this twice in 5 years, and at least at this point she's not willing to even consider counseling (either on her own or together), if I'm not better off just cutting bait. It's now a pattern. Become disillusioned with husband, seek something from OM.
It's appearing ever clearer to me that she needs to rely on someone else to make her happy to fulfill her and she doesn't want (or think) I'm that person. My thinking is that perhaps no one will ever be able to fill that void for her and I risk a lifetime of unhappiness should we stay together.
