I thought everything was okay....(Part 6)

[TLEE86]

Sorry its been so long since I checked in on your thread, but Im glad it seems like you are having an easier time detaching- regardless of how you may feel regarding the church sermon or the songs you heard.

Just my thoughts on online dating-like with everything else, just be prepared for the consequences, if any, whatever they may be.

Personally, from my own, very recent experience, I would avoid it unless you are absolutely sure you want to date and are ok with WW finding out.

I joined a couple dating websites- looking for friends, it was actually in my title that I am married and am just looking for someone to hang out with. Somehow while she's here, WAW found out, even though I deleted everything. She was pissed- even though I literally sent no one a message, didnt even have a profile picture, and met no one at all. Makes no sense to me since she's living with OM.

I didnt even want to really date, quite honestly i just missed the attention from people and didnt know anyone in this area since I just moved.

Like V said, I think it leads to EA too quickly so for me it was a mistake to even join those sites, regardless if she found out or not.

RE: Another part of me is seeing that is maybe why it wasn't 'solved' in the beginning because I didn't realize how complicated it actually was. I see now it would have been short-lived. Nine months later and WW seems still confused and lost but hiding it from everyone, just like she did in our M.

I agree that WW seems still confused and lost...but have you, MCS actually really changed? or do you feel like your changed because WW isn't there to push your buttons 24/7, to flip out on you over nothing in the blink of an eye, and if she does, it only lasts a short while because its a brief exchange or a simple text/phone call/email

Given how my sitch is going and how its all over the place with W here, I keep thinking about what Mozza and a few others wrote to me a while back- are my changes real or is it all superficial to get W home. How will I react with her here?

While I believe they are real, when my buttons get pushed, I resort back to the old T, not necessarily in full force, but enough to where its not helping me- I still need to grow. Are you confident that if WW came back today, you're fully ready and really the new improved MCS?

Keeping you in my thoughts.