It's the full moon folks

[LoisB]

Thanks Bea. I think so too.

I believe my dreams have been processing information I maybe haven't had time! to deal with in the daylight hours.

When my dad left my mom, he went on to make, literally, millions of dollars. He and his OW have enjoyed all that life has to offer in terms of the physical stuff. My mom ended up suffering through another terrible marriage.

I know that my situation has touched on some of these feelings of rage. How unfair life can be.

I think I am a person who really struggles when things just don't measure up in terms of justice. I see my daughters show the same quality.

I heard a minister describe in a sermon how, as he moved through the ranks of his ministry, he watched other people move forward financially and he KNEW they didn't pray as much, serve God as much, help others as much...It was refreshing to hear a minister describe his own frustrations on this issue.

I have years and years of anger built up. I was telling my sister last night how it's taken me three years to reach this point.

The only prayer I have right now, in terms of this anger, I want to use this power for good, not evil. And, that's hard. I've lashed out at my abusers. What I want, is to honor this stage of grief, like the others, and use this energy to...??? Make the lives of my daughters better, help women who are treated unfairly in the justice system, write a book, get buff??? IDK yet.

But, I'll be damned if I sit and do nothing with it. God has given me an assignment. Right now, I'm angry.