Thank you so much for your reply! smile It makes me so much more at ease with where I am in all of this when I read all the support and good advice from you all! <3

I had a superstruggle this weekend with the whole no contact thing, but I persevered and didn't contact him. Felt like a victory, extra so much so because (well.. I breed dogs and yesterday something really sad happened to one of my puppy-buyers dogs and it had to be put down) something really sad happened and I just wanted to talk to him and here his voice, but I hanged in there going through it alone and just thought of how fast things changes in life and that we really need to take every moment and do what is best so that we don't live with regret..

And so this morning, a small "ding" from my phone and there it was.. A text from him, saying that he hoped that I have had a good weekend and ended it with a hug. I replied and askedhim about his and ended with "take care today" (it's kind of our thing, and the other replies that we promise and say it back again) and he said he promised and said it back to me.

Felt good.. I so wish with all my heart that he thinks of me and maybe misses me a little..

Today I hope that my DB book nr 2 is in the mailbox.. Can't wait to get my hands on it..

I will absolutely take all of your advice and back of and STFU (honestly for me, that is like asking me to run a marathon with my legs tied together, I have always had trouble knowing when to STFU..) and hope that it gives him the break he needs and that it makes him think about what we have and want to salvage it.

All my best to you! Will check your tread.. Thanks again!! smile

M: 44 H: 43
ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect.
"This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15
Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15
It's over: 9/5