Zues, what you have written sounds like the cycle I am in.

My IC says that once I got on that treadmill, I was too scared to get off for fear of abandonment and rejection. Self love is such an easy concept but one that most of us find hard to do.

I have to love myself fully, before I can love others and others love me for WHO I AM and give me full acceptance. I was too scared to show whom I am before because of my rejection/ abandonment issues. I am still working towards these.

I am not afraid of being alone, I am afraid of being left alone/ abandoned, if you know what I mean.

Both 47 M 20 T25 S 18
EA July 11- Jan 12. ILYBNILWY Oct EA April 13 -July 13
Move to work abroad Sept 14
re establish contact with OW while away
D bomb 22/12/14 D filed papers served 17/03/15