Gwen, it was heart breaking to read you post. I almost feel what you feel. I remember the details and feelings at the BD, and it was almost 3 years ago for me. You’ve come a long way in just one year. I can tell you that it gets better. Yes, I still remember the details and feelings but it doesn’t sting as bad anymore. It is just sad. It is also sad that your H doesn’t have any relationship with your D’s. I hope one day he will come around and realize what he’s been missing.
Hugs to you.
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state