For the last couple months, my mom keeps telling me to not feel guilty to try new things and focus on myself. I've never really been sure what she's met because when I would GAL; it didn't make me feel guilty at all. I'm guessing that's not what she's been talking about...
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So the interesting thing is that I can see that I'm a little torn. I've accepted the sitch with my M, but today a sermon at church, along with two songs I heard back to back on the radio it just kind of hit me. The gravity of the sitch came down (not in a bad way) I just saw how through all of this, the solution seemed to be so easy in the beginning (and it kinda was.) However that solution is getting more and more complicated everyday; but I've resigned to 'its not mine to fix.' Another part of me is seeing that is maybe why it wasn't 'solved' in the beginning because I didn't realize how complicated it actually was. I see now it would have been short-lived. Nine months later and WW seems still confused and lost but hiding it from everyone, just like she did in our M.
The sermon at church was about Love and in some cases where the other person doesn't want it, we need to not force it; but simply be there if they need us to. That it feels wrong, but we can't take responsibility to fix everything and everyone.
Well, I'm here if WW needs me. But I can't be the one to fix her. She needs to do that herself. I'm not sure how long I can stand, but just like everything else in the sitch.....it will be one day at a time.
Last edited by MCS; 05/04/1504:38 AM.
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
