Reading through the last day or so posts, I know exactly where you are. If you aren't aware, I had no clue that anything was wrong in my M before BD and I remember just a month or so prior saying how thankful I am that I never really needed to 'date.' My WW was my first serious GF and we were good friends that developed into more.
Also, I understand the feeling of self-doubt when it comes to women. I've always been really comfortable with women, I'm friends with many more girls than guys. However, the reason is because I'm 'friends' with them and nothing more. I've always been really timid when it comes to anything other than that and I've never been sure why.
Not sure if you know but, WW is totally non-existent in pretty much every way in my sitch. So, while I would love to R (especially for the kids) I feel like I'm at the point that unless there are HUGE changes in her its not in the cards. I'm still standing for my M, but I'm also at the point (as others have said since the beginning) that I don't want to R for the wrong reasons and I see no progress right now. So, I made the decision that I would tip-toe back in and make new connections. Mainly from a social standpoint.
Moral of the story is that through all of this, I see my confidence is much better than I ever thought it would be. The classic trait of being fearful until you try. Now, it may be that I'm pretty sure that I'm not interested in dating, so the pressure is off. IDK. Just letting you know that sometimes we even surprise ourselves.
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
