Whoa, I'm not suffering much anymore! Now what?!?

[Pyrite]

Go Z - for the team, for you!!

you have helped me infinitely and I will forever be in your debt.

i know what you mean about the interrogation bit. it just all seems to hard no matter which way you go. new R or M.

your last Para. sums up what I was trying to say elsewhere - but altering some "words" maybe.

And of course, while the thought of trying to piece my M back together if STBX ever opened that door is truly scary at this point (ALL I can see are problems and broken parts), I believe that those feelings could change and anything's possible. I am not rooting for that at this point because I can't really imaging feeling safe or cared for with
her...but then again she said the same thing and I'm a different man, so who the heck knows, maybe she'll have a change of heart AND become a woman I believe would be able to answer the above questions in a way that would work for me. POINT IS, even though it seems impossible and undesirable, continue to stand I will.

change the genders, the very last bit "I will" AND this could be what your wife(and mine) said to herself, friends, IC when she dropped the bomb.

SO is that the point we are heading for? aiming for? All of the self growth we are trying to "learn", maybe they already did that. maybe they already had that. tell me why I am wrong please.