Trying to Follow DB & DR (3)

[Miman2]

It's not so much that I have a problem with her anti-socialism.
If she doesn't want to socialize that's fine.
She's been that way since we've been together and it's never bothered me.

My worry is that she tends to bottle her emotions and doesn't open up or act on them.

There have been lots of occasions where she has said she wishes she could talk to her nephew more.
This is the nephew she grew up with and he's more like a brother to her than anything.
She refuses to call him because "well I don't know when he's going to be busy and I don't want to bug him."

She said the same thing about me last time she was here. She mentioned that because I've been busy (GALing) when she's tried to reach out to me and because I've taken a while to get back to her when I do that she doesn't want to reach out because she "didn't want to bug me."

She could be 100% ready to work things out now but her barrier to picking up the phone and talking to me about it would be barring it.

It would be like me having to skydive to apologize to her, I hate heights and the sensation of falling.
The chances of me skydiving are slim to none.
Similar to her picking up the phone and calling that nephew of hers she wants to talk to so badly or calling me for that matter.

I am hoping and praying that she eventually has the inclination to reconcile and that it is so strong that she is willing to step out of her comfort zone enough to want to reach out to me.

I can't help but think that maybe I could to do just a little more to reach out to her. I know I shouldn't but the worry is still there.