It turns out my morning anxiety is consistent even on weekends. I still woke up at around 3 am each night in a panic and struggled to get back to sleep. Friday I took a Xanax to help me, last night I toughed it out. Just like during the week the anxiety wore off around noon.
I had a good weekend too. Came out to my parents with the kids. They are away for the month but it was still good to be here. My sister and her kids came too and my aunt dropped off her daughter so the kids had a fun cousins weekend. I took a lot of walks and only did a little bit of work Saturday. This morning it was just me and my kids and my little cousin (they are all around the same age). I told them they are on their own because I have work to do. I went to church--walked there--and that helped with the anxiety but it came back as soon as I got back in the house. So I cleaned, went for another walk and by noon I was ready to buckle down and get my work done. I had aunts and cousins coming in and out so it was nice to break up the work with conversations. I just finished my planning at around 6. Went for another walk. Feeling pretty good but I have to mentally prepare myself to go back home.
At least now I understand the pattern of this anxiety. Taking the pill at night is much better but the morning panic is tough. At least now when I experience it I know it will pass by noon.
Last edited by mustardseed; 05/03/1511:24 PM.
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