Surrendering this battle to win the war.

[Pyrite]

I have thought about this and how it sounds, and I can appreciate how people might be skeptical. I think for all of us; we can feel good about trying to be better people, and sometimes even confuse successfully "going dark", as the same. And we lump in there that we are doing all of this towards the noble cause of saving our M. We turn all our S's "hissing" into positives, and dismiss it as script etc.

I guess what I have been feeling, and what I have concluded (which could turn out to be crap) that seems to make it all sit easier is removing my S from the first paragraph entirely. So we are left with trying to be better people, full stop. As soon as I let S into this, in anyway, +ve or -ve, it screws it up for me, and sets me back .

Z's concern that I am just flicking the switch is duly noted. I agree that this wouldn't be healthy at all. I dont think it is a big problem for me as I think I lean the other way.

I dont know if this is just more of the same crap, or actually clarifies what I have been trying to say. Regardless it doesn't cost me much to post it.

Mother's Day anyone?