X, I feel your pain. Truly I do. Yes, right now that is how she feels. My XW told me that she would rather be the crazy lady with cats than be with me. She also said that she would never go out with me again. But we went out a couple of times alone before the D and had a great time. She even came over a couple of times after D to drink wine and watch tv with me.
Of course now she thinks I'm the devil and that I somehow control my kids brains because they want us back together.
Point is, you have to accept that what is happening right now you can't change. The best you can do is not make it worse. But the good and scary thing about the future is that we don't know what it holds.
Praying for you.
M40 XW35 M11 T15 S9 D5 Bomb 6/3/14 Papers del 10/3/14 D final 12/5/14
I wish I could love you and make you believe it 'Cause that's all you ever wanted From me