I know there are no guarantees but.....

[XFit14]

I haven't posted in a few days. I have been having an extremely rough time. I haven't gotten any messages from anyone on here in a few days either so maybe because I am now divorced I should move on since I didn't bust my divorce.

I have been dealing with this since October 2014, separated since end of Jan beginning of Feb 2015 and divorced last Monday. I am probably worse now since that day and on top of that I am pretty sure she has already moved on with someone else and isn't exactly hiding it.

I can't help wondering what is going through her hear, if she has ant regrets, if she is ok, if this is just a fling or rebound . . . . . and many more things I know I should be detatching from and not worrying about etc.

I can't help it and I am sure I am not the only one on here. If we didn't want or SO, W, H, BF, GF back we wouldn't be here. I have read almost all the way through Mozza's story and he has been getting great advice from 25yearsmlc. (I would love for her to give my story a read through). In turn Mozza and Cadet and SANDI2 (thank you all) have been helping me and I promise its not that I am not getting it Mozza.
I understand....I sit here and tell myself it is her loss. But that doesn't help when I think that someone else is spending Sunday sitting on the couch with Breakfast burritos and watching a marathon of Netflix like we did some weekends.

How do you move on from those thoughts yet remain hopeful that she might re-fall in love with the guy she was married to for the past almost 8 years. How do you NOT worry that some other guy has taken YOUR place in her life, on her couch, in her house and in her bed?!?!? How do you not worry that some other guy is replacing you in your SS life??

And what's the point of being patient over a possible 1-2-3 year period while she appears to have moved on immediately....

I'm just way down the past few days due to what happened earlier in the week.....

IS anyone still out there or did I run everyone off?