Complex #7 - the green(-card) mile

[Complex]

I don't think it's fair to judge me. I was committed to my marriage, but I am not anymore because it does not exist anymore at all, but I am willing to recommit if the will is there. I was talking about how our marriage came to an end in the first place. That was what will bug me forever, but now it is over, since a long time actually, and W is making this more than clear. And she is fairly aware of her decision and it seems absolutely final.
I did put effort in my career. Let's not forget I had to build it from scratch and I was not given any time to advance, some W dropped the bomb on me just a few months after I started my career. Since then I did a lot to advance it, doubled my income.
I still don't make enough to be really safe. I'm basically alone here and if anything happens I do not have a safety net here and would have to go back to Germany.
So I will need some support.i took the job and went to school in the believe that I will have a long lasting marriage and even talked about this with W and she offered her support because it was such s great career chance.
Since after BD it took me a few months to get my [censored] together because I was so devastated. It hurt the timeline of my career. But since a couple months I am truly moving forward and made a lot of progress.

So please think twice before you judge. It's not black and white.