Checked my mint account today and noticed W went to the big town for the weekend and stayed at Nice hotel and ate at nice restaurants all on her credit cards. in Past two weekends she has spent about a $1,200 on hotels and bars in the city (compared to our rural area) she doesn't know I can just look on Mint and see where cards are being spent. I never asked where she was going or showed anything but indifference. Have not heard from her since Friday. I suspect OM/OW in the big city. Still don't know for sure, but if it looks like a skunk, smells like a skunk, its probably a skunk. She did tell her mom that I look really good though. I've been enjoying time with kids and the lake ice has thawed. Going to put jetski in water and have some fun. Make sure to put some pics on FB.
I have now lost #40 and am lighter than I was in highSchool. Weird seeing abs again. My once pudgy jaw line is chiseled and my W said I looked 10 years younger when she saw me on Friday. Feels good!
I love my W, but Just not sure how long I can hold out waiting for her fog to lift. I have been observing obvious language by attractive women lately who seem to know about my sitch. Small town word travels fast. I obviously haven't acted on anything, but it certainly helps with detaching And boosting esteem. I've always preferred to DHV (demonstrate higher value) in my approach to women, priding my self on loyalty and being a good manly man. In the future, I will pride myself on being a good husband and father thanks to communication lessons and validation techniques I've learned from db/Dr.
In a few hours I will be attending church with my father in law along with my kids. I've long considered myself an atheist/agnostic, but as a military member, have always known there are no atheists in foxholes. I figure I'm in a foxhole right now and could use a powerful sermon. Also, this is a huge 180 for me since it is so far out of my character. I will be attending with an open mind, and father and mother in law are thrilled I'll be attending with the kids.
Not much to add, but I'm pretty sure what's going on with W, and it doesn't really affect me the way would have a couple months ago. Still weighing whether or not I would be willing to take her back if she wants to come back.
Just Journaling
Last edited by SadDood; 05/03/1501:47 PM.
M: 8 years, together 9 M: 41 W: 32 D 4, S 6 ILYBINILWY 2/10/15 2/14/15-2/22/15 Left home 4/5/15 Suspect A, Initiated Sandi's advice from WW thread 4/19/15 W asked for D
