WAH with one foot out the door and one in.

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Thanks for pep talk. Not giving up on DB. Two of my traits are stubbornnes and persistence, so those are coming in handy theses days. Just working through a billion emotions.

H was super moody and agitated yesterday morning, so I just ignored it but stayed pleasant. I took off to go to IC and get my hair done, which both gave me a confidence boost and came home with that attitude!

I was surprised that he stayed around the house all day. He actually did work on the yard. He likes doing that sort of stuff, but has not showed any interest in our home for over 5 weeks other than to eat and sleep. When I came home he asked how IC was ( I had not told him that was were I was going).

Needed new battery for my car. He offered to go deal with it for me, so I let him. I cooked dinner and we ate together when he got back. I know this is not detaching/180 but seemed the right thing to wait since he took my car to get fixed. Dinner turned into wonderful, light and airy conversation that lasted over two hours. We actually both laughed and smiled multiple times and he seemed to be enjoying himself. Talked about wedding we are going to in NY and does not seem anxious about it at all. Almost swore he was almost a bit flirty and teasing about some things. Detach, Detach, Detach. He did manage to through in some small comments to get me riled up. Some how we got on the topic that we gave booth been watching TED Talks. His science related. He then said your probably watching relationship stuff and laughed. I am turned away and ignored it, but was thinking our sitch is a joke to you? He is trying to act like it is not bothering him. More aviodance.

Still, overall the conversation was good though. The only thing he said about my hair was that it looked lighter, so that was disappointing. He is avoiding giving me any sort of compliment other than thank you right now.

If all goes accordingly, he will pull back and be standoffish today. Usually happens after we make any sort of connection. Will leave it up to him to initiate any communication today.