Toot Toot - here I come!

[Sotto]

Having a slow start today. Didn't wake up until almost eight, and I'm lurking in bed with the ipad. I'm thinking about my sitch and the duality of the Stockdale Paradox going forwards....

In terms of overall faith that things will be okay:

*I'm moving forwards all the time..and have faith I'll be okay whatever the outcome
*H wanting us to D is just words ATM. Time will tell if this will become actions and I will deal with that when it comes
*He hasn't responded to my email. It could (or may not) make a difference that he sees me accepting a D will happen
*I may do this divorce recovery workshop and meet others going through S/D
*I know that all kinds of sitches reach dire places and some recover.

In terms of brutal reality:

*I think my H may well be in MLC....and there's no short or easy road forwards there
*I know there are POWs (and maybe still OW) in the picture. H doesn't seem to be looking at our M at all. He may not stop until he has a new family, who knows...
*He's told me he wants a D, so I can expect that may well happen
*I'm probably going to have to deal with some legal stuff this year
*We're probably going to deal with offloading the house
*The whole financial side of things probably isn't going to be pleasant or easy
*I have more grieving to come and some horrid stuff to go through probably

The good thing is I don't feel totally overwhelmed by all of that. I have family, good friends, this forum to support. If we reach a financial settlement, I can look forward to getting a new place. I have a job, I'm safe, warm, have food in the fridge and live in a nice place. Life really isn't so bad is it?

I'm cooking lunch for the parents today. It's wet and grey here, so that's a nice thing to be doing. Aqua aerobics later...have a good day all xx