Yes Bob is right Mr Z has given you amazing advice. BTW Bob, you have been sharing your love around today, what a sweet Gem you are! I like your styles!!!
Back to you Tulo, pull all those emotions into check over the next few days, Just Breathe and vent here when you need to. I'll happily be one the end of some practice validation if that will help.
You have a great group of people following you and your sitch and we all want you to be amazing and to have a happy ending, whatever that will be.
Remember this is a marathon not spirit! I know you got this!