Old dog seeks new trick 13

[Old Dog]

gan - thanks for the noting suggestion. It sounds like a step further forward from mindfulness where instead of just watching your thoughts, you box them up.

I feel as though I'm doing everything wrong at the moment. I'm getting caught up with negative thinking which spirals out of control at times, and with so many triggers around its hard to step back and just watch.

Today was again frustrating, waiting for S15. As he is confined to home during his convalescence, a highlight of his week was a friend coming to visit which meant today was a write off until around 6pm

I'm not doing any household chores as I don't see it as my responsibility any longer I f I'm 'forced' out of the family home. So it's now more difficult to occupy my time. I did spend at least an hour trying to get my satnav to accept petrol stations with LPG. Nope, not for you matey, you can't have it.

At last though we put the top down on the car and drove round to see my mum and brother and things have improved. It's bad when silently seething is your baseline.

V - good old Sir Winston, the force behind Gallipoli where they did indeed go through hell and ... hmmmm, maybe that's not the best example.

rd - yes, that's the thing. Doing things to take you mind off it. Being with others helps. My boys are great ... But like most teenagers, they do spend rather a lot of time lounging around in bed all morning and with their noses in computer games.

I know it's a long hard road and one day I will crest the summit, I just hope that summit isn't Beachy Head.

Lisa - thanks Lisa. My mood was yoyo-ing every weekend as I went back to the 'family' home. It's now every fortnight, and even though WW is away when I'm there, the whole place just stinks of bad connotations. I'm so glad to get out. Now that I'm at my mums, I can see that more clearly.

I'm sorry you're also reminded of last year. It's coming up to our first anniversary on June 1st. I'm considering writing something on the calendar, or perhaps getting a card. Something vindictive and derogatory*. What do you think?

* [alarm]joke alert[/alarm]