OD, sending hugs your way. I second what gan said. I too feel uneasy now because it is the same time of year as last year when the s..t started to hit the fan. Recurring holidays and the like are reminders of what we were doing last year when I started to sense something was wrong, and watching him flirt with OW in front of me, feeling very unhappy and confused, and then BD.
If I still lived in the same house I think I'd probably have adapted to the location by now but we both moved. Locations where we went around BD still have negative associations for me. So I get why you would feel uncomfortable at the house. You aren't there full time and thus able to adapt. It still feels fresh.
I do what gan said, when I am reminded due to the date or location I try to refocus on something else.
