I can't add much to the wise, wonderful words of those above - your broken heart will heal. She is perhaps a fool, but as hard as I know it is, look to you and focus on what you will need to be happy. She's brought you much sorrow, so try not to look to her anymore for happiness.
In my journal, I wrote that even if H were to tell me he had a psychotic episode and didn't kniw what he was doing - it can't erase the pain and uncertainty. Idk about you, but life is too short to feel as though we're running scared within our relationships.
I wish you as much peace as you can find each day. I know what is to let go, swim in grief, and feel like there's no point anymore - but know that these emotions will pass gradually. The tears and anger are there to help us process. You will be ok. I promise! Hugs
