TLee, you can and WILL get through this. I know it is SO hard to think of your spouse leaving. But, trust me when I tell you, once she is gone, you will find your own way. Like Toots said, just get through this, steady and calm. Lean on friends and family if you can and post here all you need to.
It is very hard, at times. I know it is. Years from now, this will be but a distant memory. You have so much life ahead of you and you have the world at your feet. Stay the course, my friend, and there will be sunshine in your days again.
Take care of yourself!
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids