Tlee, please try not to lose hope. We are all here for you my friend. Things may seem dark right now. But remember that WAS say all kinds of things that turn out later not to be true. Things are only really over when you decide they are, because our WAS may tell us it is all ove - but truly only time will tell for us. My H told me he wants to file for D this week. He feels that's the path he wants to take right now. Will that always be the case? IDK - but I'm still hoping for the best but planning for the worst.
My best advice is to just get yourself through the next little period of time. Take it steady, breathe and be calm. It isn't BD again, because you have become different since then. You know so much more now about yourself and your M, okay?
Do you have supportive friends or family locally who can help you? If not, keep posting here, we are open 24/7. If you want to talk to someone, remember the crisis lines can help. Also know that our lives are much, much more than our M's and R's. Whilst this is tough, we can all move forward to happy futures, whether or not we manage to save our M's. Take care TLee - you can do this my friend. (((TLEE)))
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
