Old dog seeks new trick 13

[Old Dog]

Having said that (above) though, this morning I am sad and depressed, angry and immobilised. That Kübler Ross curve in a couple of hours. Crying over the washing up, feeling rage at the injustice of it all and slumped in a pit of depression.

I hate this house (where my kids & WW live). It's never been my home apart from a couple of months over three years ago. It's too small, too cold, right next door to a church who spend three hours every Sunday morning disturbing me (sorry religious folk, but it does), far too expensive and most of all where bomb day happened.

Why am I still, after 11 months, at the mercy of these stupid thoughts and feelings? When will it ever end? I am trying to get on and get some sort of life but this **** is never ever far from my mind and can ruin any occasion at any time.

Vent vent.