Hard not to start getting angry and resentful during DB. Those are the feeling I am having today. I have been trying to avoid those negative thoughts and live in place of love because anger and resentment are a big part of why our marriage crumbled. But it is easy to start to feel like you are married to a narcissist where everything revolves around THEIR needs and how terrible the marriage has been for THEM.Like our marriage issues have only affect H? The only person H seems to have any regard for now is himself. Then there is the whole decision of whether to work on the marriage, which also bring left up to the unilateral decision of H.
It also did not help reading old cards H had given at beginning. How life has so many uncertainties, but he knows that we can over come and of life's ups and downs and will always be committed. Maybe he really didn't know what that meant.
Just had to share these thoughts in this forum versus projecting on H right now. Not sure how long I can do this.
Me: 42 H: 40 M: 12 H moved out - 8/2015 I filed - 8/2015
