Oh Gwen, you are so brave and I see such a strong women inside of you. Your heart is hurting right now, it will heal my lovely lady, you will smile again.
You and I have walked our journeys together, I feel akin to you, our stories so alike, its almost scary. I too remember exactly where I was at BD (mine was a yr 2 weeks ago), the look on his face when he spoke the words "I don't think I can do this anymore" - my quizzical look and answer "what, move?" still naive to the fact he was telling me he was leaving me - I really understand how you are feeling right now Gwen, its a anniversary that is the hardest one to face, but we are stronger now, we have squared up to many challenges in the past year and conquered them, with grace and style.
Hoping for your m is ok, its your choice to make and no one has the right to pressure you into changing your thoughts; friends and family really can't understand why we still have that love for our h, how can they; unless you have first hand experience of being a mlc s then its baffling to them why we remain sat on the fence - ever hoping that we may be one of the lucky ones - you take this at your own pace gwen, do what feels right to you.
You have come so far, you have gone out into the world and held your head high, look back at all that you have achieved over the past year, you are one amazing women gwen.
