Thanks for checking on me! Doing ok... Has been a very busy week -- my new job is great and definitely not boring... Can't go into detail, but actively involved with investigating stuff that is pretty high profile across our district and city.
At home... Not much new -- W still in orbit, not speaking to me very much, OW still in picture, and I am actively looking for a rental that is as ideal as possible that I can move into as soon as possible. We are telling the kids this weekend (mixed feelings about doing this, but can't stall W any longer on this), so I do ask for lots of prayer around that -- specifically that God will surround our children with lots of love, peace, and guardian angels as we tell them that we are splitting up and that I am moving to a new home. I hate that this has to be done, but perhaps dealing with their reaction to the news will be one part of the process that may eventually start some sort of awakening in my W... Not expecting that to be immediate, but thinking perhaps it might be part of a long-term awakening process... Like one more jolt of reality that creates cracks in the fantasy if that makes any sense. Regardless of the impact on W, this is something that does need to be done -- I just wish we could wait a little longer.
Had a couple of breakdown moments earlier in the week where I pretty much screamed, cried, and yelled at God -- but feeling more peace over the past couple of days and back to a place of strength and faith that God is in control of this entire situation despite what the circumstances look like to me and everyone else. :-)
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
