I thought I'd quit smiling, but my coworker just told me that I smile all the time, and that I'm warm and energetic. So maybe I'm just being down on myself.
I'm just tired. Between now and July 4th I have exactly two weekends without the kids, and in that time I also have to prep the house for sale, keep it showable, and be ready to move -- all while negotiating a divorce, looking for a new place to live, and working a full time job.
I also realized today that I never grieved the end of my time as a SAHM. So that mess is lurking around in there too.
Everyone keeps telling me that once I get to the other side of this I will be better than ever. I keep thinking of that as I have to power through decisions I never wanted to make and situations I never wanted to encounter. Deep breaths and one day at a time. You are doing fantastic! I need some of your strength to rub off on me.
40s 2teens M14Y BD-10/12/13 rec-1/14 BD2-5/14 rec2-9/14 EA disc-10/14 4/15-BD 3 and triangulation ensues Served with D6/15 MS forced to leave7/15 D agreement signed 8/16 final 5/17
