Trying to Follow DB & DR (3)

[Miman2]

I've been toeing the anger/resentment/no-forgiveness line for a while.

I keep pushing the anger/resentment away and ignoring the things she's doing. All while telling myself she's out doing her own thing, there's nothing I can do about it and I can't let it get to me.

Occasionally I allow myself to feel the anger/resentment & lack of forgiveness. When I do I start to tell myself I'll be better off moving on with my life with out her. I tell myself she's made her decision and she's not going to change it.

At the end of the day I choose to move on from it all and hold on to the hope that one day she'll want to work on things. When she does I'm willing to forgive and forget and move on.

The only problem is I keep trying to convince myself that she's not the type to reach out to anyone and that I should probably try to reach out to her to try and to get the reconciliation ball rolling. :-/