You know, it's funny how quickly we regress when fed bread crumbs. I was doing well with detachment until this most recent exchange. Now I am back to second guessing myself and missing my wife, and wondering if I did everything in my power to fix things. Deep down, I know that I did. I also know that she is the one who had an affair and left, and filed for divorce.

I don't want to waste my time on these feelings. They are pointless and serve no purpose. For the life of me, I don't know why she would even bring this stuff up at this juncture. As much as I care for her, I cannot be her friend at this time with everything that has happened.


Me M51
WW F46
T 17 yrs
M 16 yrs
9 children D29 D27 D26 S24 S24 S19 S19 niece18 S17
8 grandchildren
ILYBINILWY: 12/15/14
I discover PA 12/31/14
She files D: 1/9/15
She moves out 3/2/15
D papers served 3/18/15