You are right, I need to stop panicking and not paint it all black. We still haven't had "the talk" because I felt I couldn't and told a semi-lie to get out of it.. I just felt I would break down, cry and plead and as I can tell from all the DB here that would not have been a plus in my book.
I said I'd be back on Sunday and I spend these few days running, spending time with my family and reading.. The DB book still haven't showed up, but I've got confirmation that it will be here on Monday so after my running-date in the evening I'm gonna crawl into bed and read read read!
I spoke to him both last night, (telling him my semi-lie about going away) and he was very calm and relaxed. Sounded like he enjoyed talking to me. He has his kids at home during the weekend, so I'm not sure if he'll have any time to miss me.. But at least I'm not there making a fool of myself.
I have read the validation sheet by Wonka and will read it again and again. I have also read several other treads and will do my best soaking up advice.
I know I have a very impulsive nature, going from "Oh, I'll be cool, calm and collected" to "I'm gonna call him and give him a piece of my mind NOW and the hell with him" within a blink of an eye and I guess that is my biggest thing to come to grips with personally.
I will try and keep down my expectations to zero. Maybe if I can do that I can stop going on this roller-coaster, and taking it more in stride.
My plan is to let him bring up the "talk" and take all initiative on making contact. I just hope that this little breather is gonna make him realise that he misses me, even though he said he didn't on Wednesday.
Thank you so much for your reply.. To be here, really helps loads!
Bye from a very grey and rainy Sweden..
M: 44 H: 43 ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect. "This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15 Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15 It's over: 9/5
