WAH with one foot out the door and one in.

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On a positive note to start the weekend, I have noticed that I am feeling better and better since deciding to let go and detach. The biggest thing has been learning to detach from my feelings and letting go of a timeline for all of this. Still have not detached fully as that has not be recommendation of DB coach. Because my H and I have underlying friendship still there, she wants be to use that to my advantage. Even in last ar talk, my H and I agreed we are still each other's best friends. Also, a big part of my H issues are my lack of engagement/conversation, so I guess this is part 180? I will have discussion with her on Monday about my continued conflicts with detaching and 180.

The other things that has really been helpful is GAL, DB forum, and working out. I did gain over 45 lbs during the last 10 years. I have taken of that off in the past 2 months. Hard to feel very sexy when you are not feeling great about your body. Felt great during my 6am bootcamp this morning. Had multiple people notice the changes and mentioned how great I am looking. Definitely a big boost for my confidence, which took a dive after BD. Baby steps!

Not much to report with H, other than we did chat for about 30 mins last night about our days. I noticed how tired he is looking. Still sense a lot of hostility on his part.