Sorry to hear that OD (we need an equivalent of hand on shoulder icon here!)
Could you use a guaranteed letting income agency to bridge the gap? Not as good an income but better than the alternatives maybe?
Know what you mean about wanting things to go away, I have no idea if the current upswing in my sitch will last or go where I obviously want it to go but I do know in January and February I just wanted to put my head under the pillow pull up the duvet and hide some days, just felt like a constant slog up an infinite mountain with no clear idea of what was waiting there.
Keep on keeping on OD you will get to good days again, the shape of them? Who knows. But they will be good.
Make sure even if S15 isnt coming you have some good times this weekend, problems will always be around and we may not be able to fix them all but I've learned the level of stress they cause us is something we do have some control over even if we just need to breathe, get out to a new view or go for a walk.
Hang in there matey.
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015